I Still Want the Dream – But I Had to Breathe First

Some decisions are heavy, even when they’re right.

Last week, I shared that I’m pressing pause on The OMAS Agency—not because I’m walking away from the dream, but because I’m honoring the season I’m in.

Since then, I’ve sat in all the feelings:
The sadness.
The disappointment.
The guilt.
The quiet grief of a timeline I didn’t meet.

And underneath all of that... a tender kind of hope.
Because once the decision was made, something surprising happened: I could breathe.

But now comes the part no one really talks about—what happens after the pivot.
After the announcement. After the shift. After the brave moment of saying, this isn’t working right now and I’m choosing me.

The truth is, I had to start from the bottom—not externally, but emotionally.
I had to mourn the momentum I thought I’d have.
I had to sit with the silence.
I had to remind myself (sometimes more than once a day) that this wasn’t failure—it was care.
It was alignment.

So how do you begin again after you’ve let something go?

Here’s what I’m doing—day by day, moment by moment:

1. I’m letting myself feel it.

Not bypassing. Not reframing too quickly. Just… feeling.
There’s grief in letting go of a version of the dream, even if the whole dream isn’t dead.

2. I’m choosing one thing to ground me each day.

It might be journaling. A short walk. Drinking water before coffee.
Something that says, I’m still here. I’m still worth caring for.

3. I’m redefining progress.

Right now, success looks like gentleness. Like showing up with integrity.
Like writing one blog post a week and not apologizing for what I can’t carry.

4. I’m holding space for the dream to change shape.

I still believe in The OMAS Agency. I still want it to succeed.
But maybe it’s becoming something else.
Maybe I’m becoming something else.

This is what starting over really looks like sometimes—
Not with a bang, but with a breath.
Not with a big launch, but with a whispered, I’m still here.

So if you’ve just made a hard decision…
If you’re sitting in the quiet after the pivot…
If you feel like you’re at the bottom, dusting yourself off—

You’re not alone.
You’re not failing.
You’re doing the sacred work of realignment.
And that’s a different kind of success.

Until next week,
Crystal